everything’s ready. still haven’t gone.

where i am

location: reservoir edge, parked with a water view and no real excuse.
conditions: still. warm. strangers present but minding their business.
energy level: stalled. that familiar static.

what i’m working with

• board: inflated
• gear: packed
• water: calm
• day: open

not scared. just stuck on the part where i walk past a few people, alone. then be out there, still alone. even if i like it.

if there were a dock, i’d already be gone.
if someone said “let’s go,” i would’ve.

what i noticed

• bought onx backcountry. not for the trails (though it does those), but for property lines. water access. land boundaries.
• also: to track paddles. to feel like i’m collecting something useful—or at least map-shaped.

trail, read, listen

trail
none today. stayed parked.

reading
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playlist
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tiny adjustments

• do more of: just going, even without the dock or the invite.
• do less of: writing about it instead of doing it.
• try tomorrow: maybe tomorrow.

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field note filed. wrote this instead of paddling. at least it’s honest.